Dating my Best Friend.

One of the negatives of constantly moving around is that well...you don't keep too many friends around. And this was always the case for me growing up. I was lucky if my mom decided to stay 3 years in one spot, but after that it was a new place, new school and new friends. That is until I moved to Maryland. This is the one spot that actually stuck.

I started high school in MD and was lucky that I got to be done with it in the same school. I meet a lot of new and great people, but the one that lasted was my friendship with T. We met in our drama class and instantly became attached at the hip. This in all was something new to me, a best friend.

I'll be the first to admit, that one of my most horrible flaws is that I'm not such a great friend. I forget things, miss the obvious signs of "help me please", and I don't call as much as I should. Trust me it's something I'm working on.

So anyways, yes, having one singular person that I called my best friend was truly new to me. She was the first friend that ever slept at my house and the first person that my mother allowed me to sleep over their house. And if you know anything about a Latino household - this is totally a big deal! I shared things with her that I had never even told anyone. We dreamed of graduating high school and moving to New York to become big time actresses. This was the girl who would be in my wedding. And that our future children would be best friends, like us.

Of course, sometimes life has another plan for you and things don't always plan out as dreamed. But the one thing that did, was our friendship and it was stronger than ever. Yes, we had our fights but for the most part because I tended to get angry over small things and did I mention that I can be a bit of a bad friend, well...those fights were usually started by me. But sooner or later, we would make up and go on as if nothing ever happened.

We ended up being roommates, coworkers (in another field), and eventually sister in laws. Yes, sister in laws. At heart she was always like my sister but life had that the love of her life was also my brother. (I told you life works in funny ways) Granted at first, having my best friend date my younger brother, how do I say this, was gross, but then I realized that T loved him. And how could I not understand. We had already overcome so many things together and calling her my official sister was the greatest feeling.

But again, life happens. Needless to say, our bond of eternal sisterhood was abruptly ended by my brother. Without going into too many details, because after all it is very personal information of someone else...the marriage between T and my brother did not last. And things got really crazy, really fast and it ultimately ended our friendship.

Nearly two years went by and almost no contact between the two of us.

I had experienced heartbreak before. I had my first love tell me that he didn't love me back. Another, broke my trust in a very hurtful way, that caused me to question motives of future relationships. I've had my heart broken and knew the pain and anguish of it. But never did I experience such pain and hurt and heart break over a friendship. Honestly, I didn't even know that that was possible.

I missed her terribly. I lost my kinder soul.

I would sometimes think of her and cry. I wanted to call her so many times but I couldn't. I wanted to tell her that I was sorry. That I should have been there for her. That I was sorry for being such a bad person and a bad friend to her, which she didn't deserve. But I couldn't. I thought that it was done and beyond repair. And that I would only be reminding her of her pain and I wouldn't be allowing her to move on.

One day all the feeling that I had buried inside of me for almost two years became unbearable. So I decided to send a Facebook message. I apologized. I told her how much she really means to me. And that her friendship was truly unlike any other I had ever had. And that I appreciated her.

Sending her that message was probably the best thing that I could have ever done. And I know for her to response to my message was very difficult for her. But this message opened the door for us.

We messaged back and forth - pretty much pouring our hearts to one another. I was happy to hear that she missed me too. And I was comforted with knowing that our friendship, our bond is a strong one.
After some time of messaging each other, we finally exchanged numbers and started texting each other. We started catching up on each other's lives. And after a couple of months of texts, we finally decided to meet up.

It was like meeting someone new, so you're excited but nervous. Seeing her again, was like I had found my missing piece. And I could breathe again.

It was also odd and funny in a way because it felt like I was dating her. Slowly communicating before you finally decide to meet up. And in a way it was like dating her. Getting to know each other (again) and finally deciding if the "pursuit" is worth a chance.

I know that things have changed, people grow. It's not exactly how it once was, but it's definitively a work in progress. And I know we both care about one another and we'll probably be right where we left off, just on another path, together.

I didn't realize how important a friendship is. We get so caught up in our lives: work, relationships, personal issues, and family, that sometimes we neglect to make those important friendships a priority as well. These relationships that our outside of our families also mold us into the people we become. They are a reflection of ourselves.

I thought for so long that I had lost her and the most important friendship that I had ever had. That I would never get to speak to her again. I'm glad that I was wrong. I'm glad that I put my pride and fear to the side and opened that door. I am so glad that she decided that our friendship was important to her too.

My Instagram Week(s).

Healthy breakfast for the babes

My beautiful niece

Messy work desk - it was a busy week

Delicious burgers made by P

Me and P walking around downtown DC

Kinda love my new mouse

Watching movies on the couch with P

Outfit Post: Tooth Hound

I’m not much of a ‘patterns’ girl – For the most part I tend to keep my style simple and basic. And if you must say it –  quite timeless.

However, tooth hound has really captured my eye. When I see any clothing with this pattern I automatically run to it. It has the basic-ness that I love, two solid colors but with a creative kick.

So once I found this dress I was stuck…and lucky. There was only this one dress and one size and fortunately it was my size. And the fit was on point! Lucky!

Not only do I love the pattern but I love that the style of the dress makes it very environmentally versatile. I can wear it to work, to dinner, to church, or even to a casual wedding. Awesome, right?!

On this day I wore the dress to work and paired it with a simple bangle, pair of studded earrings and a jean jacket. I looked prim, neat, and proper! What more can a girl ask for…in a dress!

Jacket - Old Navy   Dress - Forever 21   Leggings & Shoes - Seriously you can get those anywhere   

Easter Party Banner

So for the past month I have been planning our family's annual Easter party. It's something that started a few years back by my best friend. My family and I never really ever did anything for Easter other than the typical of every Catholic family; church and eat fish.

Seriously that's all I remember of Easter growing up.

Versus my best friend who grew up on Easter egg hunts and Easter baskets. I remember one year my best friend asked me what I would be doing for Easter, specifically for my niece, and I replied nothing. She stared at me with a look of extreme shock. She couldn't believe I hadn't grown up with the same traditions as she. Let alone that I would have my niece grow up with the same dull Easter traditions as I. She even said what kind of childhood did I have without Easter baskets! Ha!

She quickly started the tradition with our family of egg hunts and baskets, even if it was just for my niece. Now the small "get togethers" have become quite an affair.

Anyway as I was saying I've been a month into the planning and fortunately I have the help of my sister and cousin, who have helped greatly with the to-do list.

This year I have added some decorative elements to the party. Not too many or I would probably freak the hell out!

In my opinion, the most important decoration of the any party is the banner, along with table covers. I have no idea why I think table covers are so important, but to me they are.

So after searching online for the "perfect" font. I was able to find a bunch of different kinds of themes, not just Easter themes, on catchmyparty. I decided to go with the polka dots, not too girly or boyish, perfect.

So here are the probably unnecessary, but super easy instructions on how to make your very own banner!

And there you have it folks, banner all done!!!

I'll post a picture of the banner hanging once its party time. I currently have it pressed in between a couple of thick books, so the ends won't curl up.

This week in Instagram.

Chicken Wreath.

I first had this tasty, fatty, and oh so yummy dish a few years back. My best friend made it for dinner once and I instantly felled in love with it!

When I tell you this is good, its better than good. Its God little gift to my tummy!

So I finally decided that I should try my hand at duplicating the recipe. I was able to find a basic and simple recipe online and ta-da!

I bring you the chicken wreath!

What I love about this recipe is that you can add pretty much add whichever vegetable you like or if you don't like veggies you can omit that.

I didn't add the water chestnuts, added extra cheese and I brought some store made rotisserie chicken (I was in a bit of a hurry, but it worked just as well). Pair up the done and freshly baked wreath with some sour cream and you have yummy, creamy, delicious cheesy goodness.

Everyone I know who has tried this, has fallen in love with it as much as I have. Even my niece who absolutely hates veggies, loves this dish. I'm sure this will be the next hit at the dinner table!

First Outfit Post.

So this is my first official outfit post.

Now now, I will be the first to admit that my sense of style is well...ever so evolving. Basically I'm still trying to figure it out. I've never really fitted into one type of style: preppy, classy, labeled, rockstar...

When I was young I wore what my mother gave me. And usually what my mother gave me was what she could afford, which wasn't always much. Then once I had my own money, I really couldn't figure out what clothes looked best on me.

So as I said I'm still trying to figure it out.

Plus I think this would be a nice way of documenting my change, not only style, but also my weight-loss.

Oh did I mention that I've lost some lbs...oh I didn't. Well long story short...this is the year of me. And me includes health. And if making sure I'm healthy results in some weight-loss well that's a plus.

Top: Gift from my sister and niece  Bottom: Forever 21  Shoes: Rainbow
Bracelets: Heart - Forever 21 Pearl - Well I brought that so long ago, I don't remember.